Here is a little update... There is so much to write and I do not even know where to begin. But first I am going to tell about my latest doctor visit. This time it went a little bit better regarding my tests, but not so good emotionally... As some of you may already know, my latest test results were very bad and I was told some not very good things. :( I am sorry for getting to share this with some of you as I know how much hard it might be just to hear of it. But I want you all to know that no ...
This is my first blog on here and i thought id say a few things.. i dont know if ima be bk on dc... i avent been on since saturday and im good about it :) The real reason why i started this as i said on the title... some ppl asked me how my leg was from the other weeks lil accident and lately leg avent been ok. The bruises on my right hand and left shoulders are gone, the pain in the right arm is completly gone too which is good, but lately my legs been all swollen and my foot also. ...
Easter is the most beautiful time you keep waiting for since Christmas and it is the time which means so much to me and always gives the hope. It is all sacred and beautiful in this life, something that we all can see as the proof that salvation is out there for all of us. This year so much has changed in my life and it is not like it was in 2007 or all the years before. But the Easter is here and even though it is only 40 minutes past midnight, one can already feel the greatness of this sacred ...
There is silence all around me and no sound it can share and I'm trying to be stronger, but it's way too hard to wear - all these feelings, all these fears, all these memories and pain, when the tears are vivid beings that are falling just like rain. There is pappa yelling, screaming, he is always being mad and I wish that I was dreaming of a life I've never had... You would hug me and through crying, I would tell you how I feel and you promised you won't die, but I was told that we all will... ...
I feel just like I am in the dark and nothing is clear. I am too frightened and lost to cry or think in a proper way. Something bad is going on in my life at the moment or maybe I am just overreacting. First I fell down when I was trying to walk on my own and pappa has missed an important call when he was trying to help me out and then I have got a strange email message from a person I knew in the past, one of mamma's friends. I do not know if she wanted to have revenge on pappa for mamma's death, ...
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