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To post or not to post? It has been a question in my head for some time now. I can see that the last time I have posted anything was a while ago. I am a little bit sad now because I was planning to post almost daily along with my friend Lex, but it did not happen. When Lex gave me a call, we spoke for about two hours and when I have told him that I have not posted a single word, he told me that it is a wonder that I am still on-line after all the things I have experienced lately. Just like the rest ...

AN UPDATE

Nothing compares to adding another entry to my little diary. Sometimes it may be too sad, but the sadness is a part of me too and if it goes this way, then it would be not honest to hide it behind the thick cloth. I have heard a lot of people lately, telling me that I am a fake, not real and simulating my illness. Even though I've got used to hearing such things since the first time I got on-line, still it has made me quite sad to hear such comments again, especially behind ...

"The Real"

Today I was told that I am a fake
Today I was told that I am not real,
Behind the back, in hiding, in one take,
Without shame to wear a veil or seal.
Today I was told that I'm acting not pretty
Today I was told that I am simulator,
Who says he is ill just to call someone's pitty
And runs outside just few hours later.

I wish they never had it the way I have it here
I wish they never feel all ...

Here is a little update... There is so much to write and I do not even know where to begin. But first I am going to tell about my latest doctor visit. This time it went a little bit better regarding my tests, but not so good emotionally... As some of you may already know, my latest test results were very bad and I was told some not very good things. :( I am sorry for getting to share this with some of you as I know how much hard it might be just to hear of it. But I want you all to know that no ...

Easter is the most beautiful time you keep waiting for since Christmas and it is the time which means so much to me and always gives the hope. It is all sacred and beautiful in this life, something that we all can see as the proof that salvation is out there for all of us. This year so much has changed in my life and it is not like it was in 2007 or all the years before. But the Easter is here and even though it is only 40 minutes past midnight, one can already feel the greatness of this sacred ...