prince mio

Hey hey! Here I am again with a new blog entry. It feels like I have not been here for a long time and then I checked it's only been a day and a half. And I have already missed everyone in here and missed this wonderful place. :)

To be honest, I was feeling a little bit sad this evening because of all the strange things that kept happening to me, but now I am slowly getting over it. It just hurts quite a lot when people think that if you are a kid then you are not a person at all... But it is alright and I will live through it too.

Once again so much has been happening. My immunity test has been not so good, but mamma has kept her promise and did not get angry. But I started to cry. :( *blushes* We did not go to the park that day, but had a long car trip because mamma decided to do some shopping. But the doctor has told us that I should be better soon in any case and that we should not take things too hard. I can not wait for a moment when we can finally move back to UK.

And last night I was feeling very bad and kept throwing up for all the time. I didn't have any tummy pains, only terrible headache and my hands kept trembling. Pappa and mamma were fine, but mamma felt a little bit sick too. I had to spend most of the day in bed, but when I finally got up I ate twice and pappa took me outside for a bit... Then there was a phone call for me and it was a very precious person. I'm still feeling a bit frightened and confused from her words. Mamma was shocked as well, but I did not want to tell her the details... Trying not to cry now, but there are things you just would NEVER expect to happen and it hurts. Oh well...

Just before I end my blog entry, I want to finish it with a poem that just came to my head...

You might not see the things the way I do
And might not feel the pain I can be feeling,
But don't you treasure it when one you love is true
And don't you value it when one is at least willing?
We often say the words that hurt us in the end
We spit it out like fire, but the burning just remains
Now who is feeling better, there is none to understand
Among the anger that is left, among the unforgotten pains.
Why do we hurt, why do we come to ignorance and evil?
Why do we try to run away once things become too hard?
I guess in everyone of us lives heaven's angel and the awful devil
That's why the heart is often being broken, torn apart...

Do not hurt each other, give each other even more time and care, forgive the hurt, forgive the anger, do not feel hate and let it heal inside. Life is too short to spend it in atmosphere of hate and revenge. I love you all and ask everyone to take all of my warmth, strength, care and love.

Your always loving Rasmus.