prince mio

I want to thank you all for your support and care, for all of your letters and the kind words. I am sorry for being so much down these days, but I'm just trying to keep as quiet as possible and to keep my mouth shut about what's going on at least before things get better. I remember how I was told once by one of mamma's friends that people will not care for your troubles and those who do will not ask you anything and just will be there for you. Sometimes you just can not speak of things because it hurts and need some time to heal and try to bring yourself together. I have been feeling terribly ashamed for feeling so low when I have so many friends that need me and that keep holding on to me. I am sure that everyone who knew Ade will understand what I mean and the way how he was keeping everyone up and held so many in this life. It was like being behind transparent wall, I am sure. Of course, I am not a wall, but if I could become at least a brick for someone, at least a little bit one could hold on to and find something good, then I have reached the most important out there...

I woke up early and was sitting in front of my window, watching the birds and the trees. It was sunny, but cold. I had to eat something, but I didn't feel hungry and so I went to my pappa's room, but he has already left and left me a message, telling me that I am free to do anything and that a lady that was staying with us should be here in an hour. I called pappa's phone and he told me that he has to attend the conference and will be back in the evening. He did not tell me anything about mamma, but I think that it might be a good sign after all. I keep praying for her and I have a feeling deep inside of me that she is feeling much stronger today. Thank you for all of your prayers and for your care. I love you all very much! *hugs you all tight, except those who do not like hugs*

Rasmus.