prince mio

Something must be wrong with the world these days or maybe it is only me. It is hard, if ever possible to tell, but even though I feel so much stronger inside, there are little things that are too disturbing... Coming back to life has never been easy, but realizing that the whole world is rolling down the hill and appears far not as you thought it is, hurts, to say the least. Maybe the world still spins the same, but some people have changed and it feels just as if the weight of the world ...

Out of all the things we have been given by God, we have time and even though it may seem eternal, it is still not and the time has the ability to pass and every little moment that forms eternity in the end can still be considered dead and probably alive only in our memories and no matter how hard we might be trying to save them, help them remain, they are still not eternal. But there is still something that passes through the minutes of time, the ravages of fate and bad luck, something that knows ...

My dear family! *hugs and kisses all of you tight*

It is the moment I waited for so long and it brings the tears to my eyes as I am thinking of how long it has been since the last time I could post here or talk to anyone of you. So much has happened, so much has changed, but the love you gave me remains the same, your care and faith in me allowed me to fight and be strong. It's been the days and months full of the dark and the fear, trying to see how to live and how to cope with ...

Here comes another little update. I was going to do it much earlier, but there was a power outage and I could not be on-line. It's been like that since last night and it frightened me a lot because I was not feeling well and had to throw up for all the time which meant that I had to go to the bathroom. Pappa was asleep and I didn't want to wake him up. He had a difficult day and lots of work. I was supposed to see the doctor this morning, but as I have mentioned it in my previous entry, - it did ...

I know I have been quiet lately and did not talk much at all. At times I could not, was afraid of being on-line due to the threats I have received over the couple of weeks and sometimes simply not allowed to get up. I felt myself trapped in a circle of thoughts and feelings and did not know what to feel, how to get over all the things that have been troubling me. I was getting frightened, disappointed, betrayed, was falling down, but each time getting up again and again, finding a new way to walk, ...