Crazyeyes

Well basically i had just turned 30 years old and went out for my bday with my m8s like everyone does had a few drinks etc, and after a good night out came home got into bed and went to sleep.

Well whilst i was sleeping i had a dream that i had found a lump which woke me up, i actually had my hand "crude like this may sound but true" on my right breast and there it was, a lump the size of an egg so i panicked a little but then thought ahh its just one of them lumps women tend to get and thought it would go away, so i left it but kept an eye on it also, days turned into weeks which then turned into a month still the lump was there growing quite fast so i thought ok lets do it get to the doctors.

From then on it was a bit of a blur things happened so fast, first a biopsy in bristol followed by another 8 on the day, ouch the pain of that, u cant describe the pain but i was in tears.

The consultant asked me to wait outside on the seats so i did 10 mins later although it felt like a lifetime he asked me to come in. I knew by the look on his face it wasn't good news and this was even before the results had come back, he told me it was cancer and that because of my family history i would have to have the breast removed.

Chemothearapy followed by radiothearapy followed by a reconstruction later on. I wasnt shocked to be honest but was upset not because i had to have the whole breast removed but because my hair was all the way down my back and that would all fall out because of the harsh chemo. Although some chemo's dont effect the hair falling out my one did. I was on chemo for a long time roughly 9 months although it might of been longer u tend to try and forget these things. Anyway it went well and then on boxing day my hair was a grade one so i took of my bandana. I then started radiothearapy which was so much easier u just lie there and the machine zaps you lol piece of cake and no needles envolved.

Unlike with the chemo i have a fear of needles and i think my vains did to as the needle needs to go into ur hand in the vains. But with the radiothearapy its nothing like that u just lie on the bed a machine goes round where the breast was removed and within minutes u can go home, after a while it becomes sore i guess i can describe it as sunburn thats what it felt like and looked like. All went well and i was in remission eventually after the radiothearapy had worn off i was allowed a reconstruction over the moon to feel like a women again i was happy, had the reconstruction but the pain of it was horrible they took skin from my back to recreate the breast which tunnels under the armpit and goes round to the front it looked fantastic but very swollen my back was in agony and this has only just settled down.

Been a year now since i had the first one done and my back no longer hurts.