Crazyeyes

Hi everyone just thought I would write some more about how I'm feeling at the moment.

Well I am feeling rather good really although sometime's I do feel down, be glad when my hair come's back, and I'm back to normal again, well normal I will never be, in a way I am glad that I was able to have a reconstruction, but other time's I think was it a good idea? I know it was but it never feel's like the breast's are your's if that make's any sense.

It will make more sense to someone that has gone through the same as me, the inplants are heavyer than normal breasts, you can feel no sensation or feeling in them, they have huge scars that will last forever, but one thing is good u dont need to always wear a bra lol, although if u dont and ur wearing a white t-shirt for instance you can see the scar through it.

I think having the skin taken from my back for both the reconstruction's sometimes gets to me, I feel like a road map lol, I dont want pitty I just want you to understand what people might be thinking when they go through something like mine or any operation that leave's scars.

Does this make any sense to anyone???
Sometime's you think why me? but then you also think well why not me? Cancer doesn't choose who it wants to go in nor is it picky, its just a case or unlucky or lucky I guess, but I am lucky as I'm still here to tell the tale and hopefully help a few people who's going through it too.